National Infertility awareness week

This week is National Infertility awareness week.

As someone who is currently going through it, clearly it is close to my heart. Infertility is one of the most difficult things a couple can go through. Many couples do not survive the walk through infertility. However it has been known to also strengthen the couple and help them to last until their happily ever after.

Infertility takes a huge toll on the couple going through it. They can easily become emotionally exhausted, sick from medications,  frustrated and annoyed. Suddenly babies and pregnant women are everywhere! Evan and I discussed the "baby radar" I can always identify if there is a baby bump or baby in the room.

We know most if not all people are very sincere in what they say when they are trying to help and be supportive. And we all very much appreciate it, however when telling me about your mothers friend from church's daughter in laws sister who had success on the shot medicine, know that sometimes the success can give hope, but often it reminds us that we are still not the success story. We, I am still not pregnant.

For more information look at     www.Resolve.org

Want to be tired

Sometimes I think during the day, I just want to feel that tired again... I want a legitimate reason to be tired and take a nap. That was the biggest pregnancy symptom and I just want it back....

I am really hoping to have all of the terrible pregnancy symptoms that people complain about, during our next pregnancy.

Time will tell....

Next steps

At our last doctor appointment we were discussing the next steps to take with the infertility journey. I went in thinking that I wasn't sure I wanted to get right back on medicine, however when it was brought up that we should wait another month before starting medication again I broke down in tears, IN THE OFFICE. I felt so ridiculous. Everyone was sympathetic and Evan even had questions. It was nice that he was so involved in it.

We are starting from square one. I am spending the next few weeks getting blood work and starting the pre-medicine to prime my body for the fertility medicine. Then, when all of that is set in place we will start the fertility medicine. We are going to increase the dose as well as start another medication. I will have to go for multiple ultrasounds as well as multiple rounds of blood work to see how the hormones are doing.

If all of that goes well, then maybe baby. But as we are learning, nothing is certain.

Thinking about all of this and the fact that we recently moved 30 minutes away from the doctor makes me exhausted already. However I am excited but slightly overwhelmed

Trying to stay cautiously optimistic.

Moved

Well the move is over. We are on the farm.

It has been a week. I am still seeing the therapist. It is really helpful.

One of the hardest parts of the move was that little green box. I had to have someone else move the box and I started crying in the midst of the chaos. I didn't want it to be moved because we then had to move on. I haven't opened it since we were pregnant with Mercy. Evan wants me to get rid of it because he doesn't want me to be in pain seeing it. I will never get rid of it. I will soon have the strength to unpack it and put it away. I am not sure if the contents are ever going to be used or if they will always be Mercy's possessions. Only time will tell.

I will post pictures of our new home soon. I redid the walls and painted the house. Evan bought me new furniture which I LOVE. I just want the house to be finished before I show it off. :)